Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Just A Thought..

I am in one of my moods.

I really didn't want to have a post like this already, but I'm feeling it and I need to release it so...yeah. I have a question: have you ever felt alone? No, not alone like you are in the room by yourself, or alone like your housemate (sibling, parents, roommate, whoever) left out for a minute and left you momentarily by your lonesome...I mean ALONE. 

ALONE meaning someone didn't leave you, they just were never there. ALONE like, there isn't a soul in the world who truly gets you. ALONE in the sense that there is just this void within you that you can not seem to permanently fill. This is what I mean by alone. 

Sometimes...I feel this way. People tell me I'm different. Well this is true. Matter of fact I think I am so different that there is nobody out there who can relate to me an my life, thoughts, and feelings. I mean, I have my family and friends all of whom i love dearly, but a lot of times it seems as if I'm on a one man island.    

But it's not just alone like I feel un-relatable...It's also like I'm starting to wonder if there is anyone out there for me... lol really I know I'm young and I have years to think about that and I shouldn't worry and blah blah blah...but thus far it's just not looking promising. But I try to keep in my mind that I can count how many boyfriends I've had in my whole life using less than all of my fingers on one hand ...so maybe there's a whole sea of fish undiscovered...

Hmm....welp. I don't know. Yes it's true I haven't been in a lot of relationships..but the ones I was in were longterm (I'm talkin like at least a year)...plus I've talked to various guys. And point blank period, I'm scared. But that is a topic for another post entirely..

So basically..

In my life I feel like I'm often misunderstood. This in many cases is partly my fault because I almost refuse to be any type of transparent...but nonetheless, misunderstood. This makes for a lonely existence.

But then again, I could be exaggerating. Perhaps I am not as lonely as I currently describe. Or maybe, I am not alone in this feeling...this may be "normal". This is probably just what I said above, just a mood...it too will pass. Well if that's to be true, I can go to sleep with the lingering optimism that I always ultimately cling so comfortably to....I mean, do I have any other choice?


Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Just To See.

Ok. So this first post is just to become acclimated to this blogging thing. So be forewarned that i probably will do everything you can do in a blog post just to see how it works. I more than likely will delete this after a day or two any way...so basically I am writing this for myself. What ever. So here goes.

Hello :)

I'm Meri.

I'm from the lovely Nation's Capitol, Washington, D.C. I'm not going to sit here and tell u all my bizz because there are stalkers out there :/ so I'll have to think about something else to talk about. How about a few of my pet peeves...Yes? Good!


  • I HATE to hear people chew...like really, It makes me cringe...or want to snatch the food out of their hands.
  • I do not like repeating myself. I mean, how many times do I really need to say the SAME thing? open your ears, shut your mouth, and listen attentively. 
  • I don't like watching overweight people eat. I knowww I feel so evil for stating it outside of my head, but it's how I feel! lol I mean i just don't like to see them stuffing their face...it just  looks Uber-fat. 
Well I can't think of any more pet peeves at the moment. And I feel like a total ass for the ones I wrote above. But hey, this is my space. If I can't express myself in myspace where can I?

Sooo... what's next? Hmm well, how about some hobbies.

           The Things I Love To Do

  1. I Loovveee to eat! (ironic because of my pet peeve above, yea i know). Eating is my favorite pastime. I just love food and trying different types and tastes of food. i always do my happy dance when I eat :) lol
  2. I love to play my Cello. I've named it "Marie Antoinette" (oh yeah. disclaimer: I name almost all of my possessions. Well at least the significant ones...) Playing my Cello is so therapeutic and I love classical music. 
  3. I love to cook. Although I don't find the time or resources to do it often, I truly enjoy it. 
  4. I love to dance! I really take joy in dancing...I just don't like for people to watch me dance. lol i don't know, it comes from childhood shyness I guess..
  5. I love learning. Not just academically, but in every aspect of life. I am a very curious person so I love to investigate things and find stuff out...It just makes for a more knowledgeable individual..and who wouldn't want to be knowledgeable..?
  6. Lastly, I will say that I love, Love. I just do. I love to be in love (on a good day), and I love the feeling of love, both received and given. Love is what keeps me going everyday. Without it...well I don't even want to imagine.
Well I'm sort of tired of writing. I didn't use every feature, but I get the gist of it lol. So this is a little ice breaker...just a glimpse of me. I'll be back soon... 


                                                                          Peace.